Sometimes its out of my control. My anger. :) I'm pissed okay. Everytime not I do wrong then still scold me. What the fuck? Fine. You my mum. I can't say anything. Another one, my brother. I can't take a knife and stab you. If you were just some random asshole, I can.
No one to talk to other than Xinyi and Jack.  
Where are you? Use your superpowers to realise that I'm troubled?

Last time i told Jack: When I was 9, I got accused wrongly. Very wrongly. And I was on my bed, crying silently, can't sleep. I planned out everything. I study hard, earn a lot a lot money; and when I am 21, I move out, get my own house and continue earning big bucks. When I turn 25, I'll find a good guy and runaway for the rest of my life. 
Stupid definition. If I heck care about my parents, won't they be alone? My brother definitely won't care. He swore before. They still my parents what. They brought me up, and I should repay them.
I always see old people alone, carrying umbrella as support. And everytime I see that, I feel so damn.. unfair. So, I won't let my parents be that bah.
My bro got stead, they don't care. If they ever know that I got a stead, they'll hack me into pieces.
My bro got 1 A1, 1 B4, 4 C5s, 2 D7s, they happily smiling. I got 3 A1s, 2 B3, 2 C5s, 1 D7, they frown and ask me why.
Now my turn, why like this?


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Hi, my name is Lim Qing, or you can call me Lois. I'm a '97 kid and I live in Singapore.
Blessed to be a child of God ^_^

● Why forty waves away?

At first I was thinking of a made-up-word, but in the end I decided on this because I chanced upon this verse in the bible:
" And when He had fasted forty days and forty nights, afterward He was hungry. "
(Matthew 4:2)
Forty.

Some time later during church Pastor was sharing about Moses:
" So he was there with the Lord forty days and forty nights; he neither ate bread nor drank water. And He wrote on the tablets the words of the covenant, the Ten Commandments. " (Exodus 34:28)
Forty again.

At this point I was going through a downhill ride in my walk, and I was seeking the way out. Being really curious about the number forty in the bible, I went to search it out.
"... the number 40 generally symbolizes a period of testing, trial or probation. ..."

And so, I'm always reminded that nothing is further than forty waves away. This blog is hence dedicated to remember all the 'forty days' I'll meet and to remind myself that God will always provide a way out for every trial, whether if it really lasts forty days or even more. (alongside rants and random posts of course!!)

Enjoy reading!! ^_^