Sometimes I feel happy, sometimes I feel sad, sometimes I feel tired, sometimes I feel so.. unexplainable. Whatever happens this june holiday is so in a mess, and all started with me. Unknowingly. Apologies. And sometimes I also dont know who is right, who is wrong. And if no one takes it, I guess I should. Now I only can tell my diary. Dear diary. Maybe one day I cant even trust you. Maybe I should take all wrong things because I myself is so sotong. You turned away from me, chose to trust it. Then I should not try hard to make you turn towards me anymore. Maybe I should just stare at your back, and accept that I should not see your smile, but always see your back.  
I'm lost.


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Hi, my name is Lim Qing, or you can call me Lois. I'm a '97 kid and I live in Singapore.
Blessed to be a child of God ^_^

● Why forty waves away?

At first I was thinking of a made-up-word, but in the end I decided on this because I chanced upon this verse in the bible:
" And when He had fasted forty days and forty nights, afterward He was hungry. "
(Matthew 4:2)
Forty.

Some time later during church Pastor was sharing about Moses:
" So he was there with the Lord forty days and forty nights; he neither ate bread nor drank water. And He wrote on the tablets the words of the covenant, the Ten Commandments. " (Exodus 34:28)
Forty again.

At this point I was going through a downhill ride in my walk, and I was seeking the way out. Being really curious about the number forty in the bible, I went to search it out.
"... the number 40 generally symbolizes a period of testing, trial or probation. ..."

And so, I'm always reminded that nothing is further than forty waves away. This blog is hence dedicated to remember all the 'forty days' I'll meet and to remind myself that God will always provide a way out for every trial, whether if it really lasts forty days or even more. (alongside rants and random posts of course!!)

Enjoy reading!! ^_^